Actual Being

I like to think of myself as a good husband, especially since we have been married for over twenty years, so I must be doing something right. Right? The reason I bring this up, as it’s the introduction to why I decided to live a minimalistic lifestyle. This had nothing to do with the quality of my marriage, but it was bothering me that I had started snapping at my wife for obviously ridiculous reasons. It then hit me that I have always had a small chip on my shoulder, so I was wondering why I was so angry.

After doing some reading I determined that my anger stems from me trying too hard for people to like me. On the outside, I always appeared as if I could care less what people thought of me, but that was the farthest thing from the truth. During my research I found that people who try too hard for acceptance, generally get angry inside because they don’t get the response or outcome from doing so much to please others.

Finally, I realized that you can’t make other people like you, or pretty much do anything really, so I decided to scale back and focus on what makes me happy. I was surprised that I had a lot of hobbies and club activities that I didn’t really need or care for. Then I started applying this to everything in my home. I had things I purchased to show off, but then realized nobody really cared what I had.

Then I had the urge to get rid of all of the things I didn’t use. I had so much clutter in the house, and it was making me disgusted with the stuff I was finding that we never use. I started looking on line about clearing out clutter and organizing just to find that I didn’t want to simply move stuff around, as I wanted it out of my life. Read the rest of this entry »